Friday, February 13, 2009

Hayden's 5th checkup

We had the fifth checkup today for Hayden. We started the day saying that it would be the "best day ever". He has computer class on Friday. He never has aftercare on Friday, and he hates aftercare. His Valentine's party was this afternoon and both of his aunts came to the party. And then, we all went to Matilyn's Valentine's party. So, he had a lot to look forward to as the day started. He asked the nurse as soon as we walked into the exam room if he would have to get a shot. She assured him that he wouldn't. We celebrated a bit. Then the doctor confirmed that there would be no shots. Then, in the last minute, he said that a CBC ( a simple finger stick test) would be necessary to rule out anemia. Its routine for kids his age. After the tech drew his blood, I felt like I had lied to him and looked at me in a way that made me believe that he thought the same. Then, we went to his school and his classroom was empty. He cried because he believed that he had missed computer class. We ran together as fast as we could to his computer class. As soon as we got there, I was as good as invisible. Apparently, after I left the class, balloons were delivered to the students whose parents had bought them from the Student Council. I was unaware that they were for sale. Hayden cried when he saw that there were no balloons for him. Basically, I felt like a failure as a parent today. No matter what I did today, Hayden felt lied to and forgotten. A parent's worst day. A typical Friday the 13th. So sorry, my sweet buddy, that the day wasn't perfect. You are my world. I'm sorry that I can't protect you from all of the world's hurt.. I love you so much.

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